Since May, I've been studying at Self Pleasure School, which is online.
Self Pleasure aka Masturbation.
I've been taking the course which offers
Monthly Audio Meditations and Audio Self Pleasure Practices to get to know yourself and your body profoundly and notice how you perceive your body and sexulaity.
Students practice the meditation and self pleasure at home and
we have the online video call once a month.
We can ask questioons and share our experiences with women
from all over the world.
↑ ↑ ↑ Practices for each month are under super pretty pussy arts💖💖💖
When I watched her talk for the first time,
I was soo surprised and impressed that I had goosebumps.
I had never seen a woman who talked about female masturbation and orgasm so
brilliantly, vividly, bravely and lively.
Her energy sparkled all over the venue and I even could feel her excitement and joy through the screen.
I instantly bacame a big fan of her💖
I loved her British accents too.
Up to here, it is just my preamble.
（It's gonna be long!）
Anyway, we had a monthly video call on Thursday.
A woman in her twenties(?) asked Keeley
how to experience clitoral and vaginal orgasm deeply.
The way she asked was just like a little girl who tries to invent a new game and her curiosity is so pure and no hesitation or shame on questions.
She also said she appreciates her period sooo much and how excited and blissful she is during her period.
She was very cute and adorable💖
I don' t know what the environment she has grown up was like, but I was really impressed she loves and is curious about her body genuinely.
Mostly in the world, there are still a lot of stigma on sexuality and sex, and we don't discuss about this topic thoroughly.
The way she asked made me realize that
sexuality should be something very joyful, intriguing and makes us wonder and fascinate✨✨✨
I also realized in my self pleasure course that
Getting to know your body = Getting to know yourself deeply.
Everyone asks different things and some of them are about some core topics in your life such as..
‐How to achieve your goals
‐Relationships with your parents when you were little.
Keeley answered each question very sincerely,
and she also dug into my questions deeply and
that gave me new awareness.
I felt like I basked in warm fluffy atmosphere
something like love or compassion and
that melted my grief and seriousness.
I had been feeling very low over the last 2 weeks,
but I just felt that I needed to be loved by myself more.
I will take care of myself and
pay attention to what I feel sad about and I am hurt.
Also, I strongly felt
Getting to know your body.
Giving yourself pleasurable sensations.
Getting to know yourself.
All of these are nothing but LOVE.
That love never stops inside of you.
When you love yourself sincerely,
It naturally overflows to loved ones around you
and the rest of the world.
I knew that I'm very greedy and want to be loved soooo much.
Even if someone loves me so deeply, it's never enough.
I just want to be truly in love with myself.
I will nurture a source of love inside of me.
I don't say everything is sorted in my life,
But I feel sooooooooooo blessed and am happy to be me💖💖